Autumn song

This is a new song I composed, interwoven with a poem of mine, which is written below. Enjoy!

Today, nothing suffices -

Today, is nothing enough?

As I cannot take one single step, or look ahead

wishing the world would approach me, boldly

All these dead birds on my path

do you remember the first you ever saw?

mine was small, pale-blue and delicate

with tiny fluffy feathers drenched in scarlet

All these dead birds on my path

beautiful and horrific -

I swear, I did not shoot them down

I swear, they must have fallen by themselves

on their way to where I’ll never know

why I’ll never know, but know

I'll have to kneel down by their side,

wrap strings and stones around their bones

and lift them up onto my chest

to carry them to the water's edge

All these dead birds forsaken by their sky

I will walk into the water with them

one last moment of weightlessness together

before sinking lightly to the ground unseen

It is a bit like flying, is it not?

they almost spread their wings, and I

should I join their journey of descent?

or journey back from where I came

collecting every single one of my dead birds

While I stand there, undecided

clumsily

a tiny fluffy feather falls before my eyes

playfully

reminds me of the sky, and I

gaze up to spot the bird of prey

drawing circles high above my head

and then

I walk on, abandon both my choices

for birds of prey will always live

beautiful and horrific